Monday, October 17, 2011
Music Monday: "Everlong" by Foo Fighters
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Window Shopping Wednesday: Halloween!
I truly love Halloween and all the festivities attached to it like trick or treating (24 is NOT too old, right?) and going to the pumpkin patch. Sadly, we'll be missing Halloween this year because we'll be on our honeymoon in Mexco. Although, I am super excited about our honeymoon it would have been our first Halloween in our new house. Poo. Oh well. Either way, I'm enjoying looking at all the great Halloween fun for sale this time of year. As usual, Etsy has the cutest and most creative items ever!
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
It finally happened.
It happened. I finally had a bridal breakdown. I've always struggled with my weight and I had been trying to lose weight. But as of lately with my sister visiting and all the stress of the wedding there has been a lot of eating out and I just got overwhelmed with everything and stopped caring. "Tomorrow I'll start my diet" became my mantra after each meal. "Tomorrow", I would repeat the same thing. I saw some photos from the engagement shoot we did and while they were great, but my self image issues started rising with every photo I saw. I freaked out. I almost cancelled the photographer because why do I want to see pictures of me looking fat at my own wedding?
I was texting with Blaine and he kept trying to tell me to calm down, that I wasn't fat and that I should be focusing on the fact that these photos of our engagement and wedding should be treasured for their meaning. What a guy. But when I see a picture of myself, I can't help but be like "wow... that would look ok if I were about 6 months pregnant". Yeah. I'm 5'6" and 165 pounds. I AM overweight, it's a fact. My BMI is 26.2 while the healthy range is 18.5 - 24.9. So I'm really not THAT overweight, but I am. According to the CDC my healthy weight range is 116 - 157. First off, 116? If I were 116 pounds, I think I would look completely emaciate. But 157? That's only 8 pounds away from what I am right now.
I actually weighed myself yesterday at 167 (my highest ever was 170, so I'm creeping up there again). Before my sister came I was down to 162. My goal was to get to my high school weight of 155 by the wedding. Back in high school I thought I was fat. But looking at my prom picture, I wish I could have that body. I'd be happy to weigh that much. This morning, after eating relatively healthy yesterday, I was 165. I only have 10 days, but the first few pounds always drop off pretty quickly when I've been eating crappy. My new goal is to just eat healthy and hopefully get down under 160. I haven't been under 160 in years. To lose 5 pounds in 10 days probably isn't all that healthy, but at this point I'm not that worried about it. I'm not trying to lose 25 pounds in 10 days. I think 5 pounds is doable. Plus, at this point I feel like my self esteem is more unhealthy than losing weight a little too fast. Maybe that's just me rationalizing it.
But along with all of this, I'm trying to just see myself from others perspectives. Do I EVER see someone heavier than me and go "OMG, she's disgusting"? Never. Why would people look at me and think I'm fat? Why would they have an image of what weight they think I should be? Only I would logically think that way. I don't look at someone and be like "oh, she'd look better 10 pounds lighter". In all honesty, she might look better 10 pounds lighter, but why would that be a thought in MY mind? Why would I care? With that in mind, why should anyone care or judge the way I look?
I've calmed down a bit. I'm trying to go into the wedding with the perspective that this is how I look, Blaine loves me and this is our day. I don't want to be bogged down worrying that I'll hate the pictures. I have 10 days to fix my body to the best of my ability, but what I really need to work on is my state of mind.
I was texting with Blaine and he kept trying to tell me to calm down, that I wasn't fat and that I should be focusing on the fact that these photos of our engagement and wedding should be treasured for their meaning. What a guy. But when I see a picture of myself, I can't help but be like "wow... that would look ok if I were about 6 months pregnant". Yeah. I'm 5'6" and 165 pounds. I AM overweight, it's a fact. My BMI is 26.2 while the healthy range is 18.5 - 24.9. So I'm really not THAT overweight, but I am. According to the CDC my healthy weight range is 116 - 157. First off, 116? If I were 116 pounds, I think I would look completely emaciate. But 157? That's only 8 pounds away from what I am right now.
I actually weighed myself yesterday at 167 (my highest ever was 170, so I'm creeping up there again). Before my sister came I was down to 162. My goal was to get to my high school weight of 155 by the wedding. Back in high school I thought I was fat. But looking at my prom picture, I wish I could have that body. I'd be happy to weigh that much. This morning, after eating relatively healthy yesterday, I was 165. I only have 10 days, but the first few pounds always drop off pretty quickly when I've been eating crappy. My new goal is to just eat healthy and hopefully get down under 160. I haven't been under 160 in years. To lose 5 pounds in 10 days probably isn't all that healthy, but at this point I'm not that worried about it. I'm not trying to lose 25 pounds in 10 days. I think 5 pounds is doable. Plus, at this point I feel like my self esteem is more unhealthy than losing weight a little too fast. Maybe that's just me rationalizing it.
But along with all of this, I'm trying to just see myself from others perspectives. Do I EVER see someone heavier than me and go "OMG, she's disgusting"? Never. Why would people look at me and think I'm fat? Why would they have an image of what weight they think I should be? Only I would logically think that way. I don't look at someone and be like "oh, she'd look better 10 pounds lighter". In all honesty, she might look better 10 pounds lighter, but why would that be a thought in MY mind? Why would I care? With that in mind, why should anyone care or judge the way I look?
I've calmed down a bit. I'm trying to go into the wedding with the perspective that this is how I look, Blaine loves me and this is our day. I don't want to be bogged down worrying that I'll hate the pictures. I have 10 days to fix my body to the best of my ability, but what I really need to work on is my state of mind.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Music Monday: Anna Nalick - Breathe (2 AM)
Breathe by Anna Nalick is the best song to sing along to when you're along and can just belt it out. I tend to listen to it in the car alone or when I'm at home alone cleaning or doing some other chore. I love it.
Weekend Recap
Phew, the last few weekends have been so so busy. While I am beyond excited that our wedding is quickly approaching, I'm also behind on what I need to do and exhausted because it seems like every weekend is completely full!
Saturday afternoon my sister, dad and I headed down to LA. We dropped my dad off at my grandma's house and my sister and I headed over to Blaine's parents house where we always stay when we come down for the weekend. Our reason for coming down this weekend was for our engagement photoshoot, which I talked a little about on Friday.
Well... let's just say things didn't go as expected. My sister and I created a facebook event inviting all of our facebook friends to be zombies for the second/fun half of Blaine and my engagement photoshoot. We were to meet at the beach in the morning. We were bringing doughnuts for everyone and bought make up. We had 16 people who RSVPed that they were coming plus my best friend, my sisters best friend and Blaine's best friend. Now I'm a pretty realistic person so I figured about half of them wouldn't show up. However, I would have been totally happy with five.
We were running a bit late and finally got to the beach a little before 9am. We had about 4 dozen doughnuts ready, plus the two photographers (my uncle and cousin-in-law). I won't go into details, but all of our best friends texted us flaking. And then guess how many of the 16 facebook RSVP's showed up? ZERO. Now, I completely understand that we weren't paying anyone and no one was under no obligation to come, but really? Who does that? Why would you RSVP for something and then not show up. I'm sure things came up for some people, but for others I know it was just laziness. Rude. So here we were with way too many doughnuts, filled with excitement about how fun this photoshoot would be.
Ugh. Just plain annoying. //end rant
Other than that, the engagement shoot went well besides the fact that we got completely soaked by the waves while trying to take photos. And then there were some awkward poses (most of them). Neither one of us is very photogenic so you can just imagine.
I'll definitely share the engagement photos when I get them. I'm excited to see how they turned out.
After the shoot we made our way over to Paradise Cove in Malibu for lunch and then shopped for a few hours. I got my wedding shoes, but I'm doing a bit of DIY on them to make them perfect. Blaine is too funny. He hates heels. We found flats that I loved in a pale pink lace, but the first Macy's only had one shoe in my size and couldn't find the other. Then the second Macy's didn't have my size at all. Go figure. That sweet boy of mine is going to check the other two Macy's in the area for them after work today. What man goes shoe shopping for his fiance? Mine. I love him.
We then proceeded to have a quick dinner at Panda Express (can you tell this whole losing weight thing isn't going well?) and then headed over to the the $3 theater (amazing) and saw Bad Teacher. It was pretty funny, we actually liked it more than expected.
This week will be filled with lots of DIY projects, list making to assure that I have everything planned and ready to go and then on Friday we're going to a Foo Fighters concert. I'm excited for the next couple of weeks. They're going to go by fast so I'm going to do my best to savor the last few weeks I have as a fiance before I am a wife and have a husband. <3
Saturday afternoon my sister, dad and I headed down to LA. We dropped my dad off at my grandma's house and my sister and I headed over to Blaine's parents house where we always stay when we come down for the weekend. Our reason for coming down this weekend was for our engagement photoshoot, which I talked a little about on Friday.
Well... let's just say things didn't go as expected. My sister and I created a facebook event inviting all of our facebook friends to be zombies for the second/fun half of Blaine and my engagement photoshoot. We were to meet at the beach in the morning. We were bringing doughnuts for everyone and bought make up. We had 16 people who RSVPed that they were coming plus my best friend, my sisters best friend and Blaine's best friend. Now I'm a pretty realistic person so I figured about half of them wouldn't show up. However, I would have been totally happy with five.
We were running a bit late and finally got to the beach a little before 9am. We had about 4 dozen doughnuts ready, plus the two photographers (my uncle and cousin-in-law). I won't go into details, but all of our best friends texted us flaking. And then guess how many of the 16 facebook RSVP's showed up? ZERO. Now, I completely understand that we weren't paying anyone and no one was under no obligation to come, but really? Who does that? Why would you RSVP for something and then not show up. I'm sure things came up for some people, but for others I know it was just laziness. Rude. So here we were with way too many doughnuts, filled with excitement about how fun this photoshoot would be.
Ugh. Just plain annoying. //end rant
Other than that, the engagement shoot went well besides the fact that we got completely soaked by the waves while trying to take photos. And then there were some awkward poses (most of them). Neither one of us is very photogenic so you can just imagine.
I'll definitely share the engagement photos when I get them. I'm excited to see how they turned out.
After the shoot we made our way over to Paradise Cove in Malibu for lunch and then shopped for a few hours. I got my wedding shoes, but I'm doing a bit of DIY on them to make them perfect. Blaine is too funny. He hates heels. We found flats that I loved in a pale pink lace, but the first Macy's only had one shoe in my size and couldn't find the other. Then the second Macy's didn't have my size at all. Go figure. That sweet boy of mine is going to check the other two Macy's in the area for them after work today. What man goes shoe shopping for his fiance? Mine. I love him.
We then proceeded to have a quick dinner at Panda Express (can you tell this whole losing weight thing isn't going well?) and then headed over to the the $3 theater (amazing) and saw Bad Teacher. It was pretty funny, we actually liked it more than expected.
This week will be filled with lots of DIY projects, list making to assure that I have everything planned and ready to go and then on Friday we're going to a Foo Fighters concert. I'm excited for the next couple of weeks. They're going to go by fast so I'm going to do my best to savor the last few weeks I have as a fiance before I am a wife and have a husband. <3
Friday, October 7, 2011
Weekend Link Love!
It's been a while, Weekend Link Love. I've been gathering up some of my favorite links for the last few month(s) that I've skipped out on this feature. I don't want to overwhelm the post, so I'll have to split it up over the next few weekends.
This Saturday we're dropping off 3 out of 4 of the dogs at the Pet Lodge for boarding. I'm nervous. I've never boarded my dogs before, we've always had friends or family around to watch them. Since moving in February we've either had to make sure someone stayed home, or the dogs have had to tag along to where ever we're going. Yikes. It's always been sort of a hassle. I'm excited to see how it works out. It's a good little trial run before the wedding while my dad, sister and I head to LA for part of the weekend. On Sunday morning we're headed to the beach bright and early for our engagement photo shoot (finally) and it's going to be an interesting one! We'll obviously do the stereotypical, nice photos, but my awesome uncle came up with a fun idea for a Part 2: Zombie Invasion. Done. Deal. I'm super excited, we have about 15 people who say they're coming to be zombies. I've promised doughnuts for all who come be apart of the shoot.
Eeek! I'm super excited. Next week I'll be sharing the latest thrift finds (I'm going to pick up one tomorrow! It might be my furniture soul mate.) and really adorable clothes I picked up at a great sale. Now onto the links...
Two words: Ikea Hackers. I'm obsessed. I can't even link to my favorites because I will literally fill this entire post with genius-ness.
I've become more "green" I've aged. Honestly, I was "green" before it was "in". My dad has always been outdoorsy and all about recycling/helping the environment. Let's just say he created a monster who refuses to waste anything. Dryer Sheets? I hate them because I feel like they're a waste. At least now I have a list of ways to get a second use out of them from here.
Our countdown to our 8 night honeymoon in Puerto Villarta has begun! Being a Vegetarian, I was a little concerned about what I could eat. This article over at about.com about Vegetarian Travel in Mexico has really helped! It not only gives me veggie dishes to try, but teaches phrases like "No como carne" (I don't eat meat). NICE!
Sarah over at Sweetest Nest is adorable. And thrifty! My kind of girl! I've been reading through her blog off and on for the last few days.
My sister and I both came across this tutorial on how to rag roll your hair. We're both super excited to see how it turns out with long hair like ours. Silly fact: I read it as "rag doll" not "rag roll" so I've just been calling it rag dolling ever since. Oopsie.
DIY for a chalkboard banner that can be customized for each occasion. Sweet.
Elsie's 5 Tips on Photographing Your Home are great! I often try, get overwhelmed and give up. Typical. But with the new house, I'm definitely going to take photos regularly.
I just love this story about an abused, starved, sick dog who got a week of knowing what it's like to be loved before they ended her suffering. Beautiful.
P.S. It only took me until 12:26am to give in and order a brand new iPhone 4S in White. Self control fail.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
iPhone dilemmas.
The iPhone 4S just happens to be available for pre-order on my upgrade date. Interesting. Coincidence? Doubt it. Either way, I bought a low model Blackberry in 2010, lost that a few months ago and am now trying to deal with my dad's Blackberry Storm which is over 2 years old at this point. Did I also mentioned that I somehow managed to drop and crack the screen of the Storm within the first week of having it? I have never cracked a screen in my... 10 (?) years of cell phone ownership.
Now the dilemma is, do I want to upgrade to the iPhone 4S? Should I just deal with the Storm until the iPhone 5 comes out? When will that be? Should I buy a used iPhone 4 for $250+ on ebay and then wait for the iPhone 5 to come out before I renew my contract and then resell the iPhone 4 on ebay? Should I just get the $99 8GB iPhone 4 and save the $100 to help with the wedding and our new mortgage that we're responsible for?
I'm indecisive as it is and I've gone back and forth about it over the last few days. I'm still undecided. As tempting as it is to pre-order either the new 8GB iPhone 4 or the iPhone 4S, I'm going to hold off and think about it for the next week. Then if I decide on it, I get to hope that they'll be in stock for me to buy before I go on my honeymoon to Mexico so that I can use it as a camera as my 5 year old Canon is driving me completely nuts at this point.
Or maybe I'll give in over the next 51 minutes and end up pre-ordering one of them.
Why is this so difficult? Why am I putting so much thought into it?!
The truth of the matter is, there will always be something new and better that comes out every couple of months. You either deal with it and wait for your next upgrade date or shell out $500+, which is just (in my opinion) crazy.
It should be interesting to read all this rambling when I've made a decision. I'm sure I'll be ashamed of how much thought I've put into the decision. It's just a cell phone, Aileen. It's just a cell phone.
P.S. Oh god. What color am I supposed to choose????? (half laughing at myself, half embarrassed right now.)
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
It's Raining!
It's Raining!! It hasn't really rained in months (besides a little during the recent thunderstorms) and I'm loving it. It's so cozy and warm inside. Downfall? Wet dog smell. I'm burning candles. Still the wet dog smell. Meh. That's ok, though. I'm going to enjoy the weather, though I'm sure there is plenty more of it to come.
How my day is looking to day:
*Sew up several orders
*Laundry
*Wedding stuff (only 16 days to go!)
*Watch Glee reruns
*Find a new book to download on my Nook
Also - I need a new camera. I've needed one for the last year or two because mine is dying on me, but now with our honeymoon to Puerto Villarta coming up I need something to capture all the amazing-ness. Maybe I'll spend part of today researching a cheap decent camera.
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